Lepas beberapa
bulan, baru ringan tangan untuk menaip.
This semester break
is so different as I spend two months in University of Sussex,United Kingdom
for research program. How I got there,..
So the story started
on 10th of January 2018 when one of my friend …(lets name him 'A')… told us in
the "Chemistry" whatsapp group about the program. He was asking there
if anyone interested to join the program so that he can emailed the full details
about the program. At the moment there was 2 programs offered. One is
International Junior Research Associate (IJRA) and another one is International
Undergraduate Research Bursary. So I ignored the messages as I'm not interested
at all.
Later, that same
night.
I was texting my so
call 'crush'…(was a crush of mine.. Not anymore)… And he is telling me that he
was wishing to go for exchange program somewhere overseas. Then I got this kind
of feeling.. Something like 'oh no. I got to be better than him. So I have to
go oversea first. Before him.' I don’t know why, but I always and only feel
challenged when it come to him. So I texted 'A' asking for the details about
that program. He emailed me.
Go through the
emails and details about both program. But they don’t offer any scholarship or
sponsorship except the research grant. Meaning that "I will not afford to
go there joining the program". Obviously I didn’t apply for both.
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But!
The story didn’t end
there..
On 11th February
2018, while I was playing bowling with my friends, 'A' texted me, asking if I'm
still interested to join the program as he is desperate to submit few
candidates. I told him clearly that I couldn’t afford them. Our conversation
goes something like…..
'A'
: kau nak join tak IJRA? Aku kena hantar nama dekat Prof Yatimah ni…
Me:
tak da duit nak hidup kat sana..
'A'
: Prof cakap tak payah risau pasal duit…
(seriously guys.. Don’t ever believe)
Me:
ya ya jaa….
'A'
: kasi je lah nama.. Nanti confirm tak dapat.. Diorang mesti pilih yang pointer
tinggi je..
Me
: suka hati kau lah..
This is how I got
involved…
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The other candidates
are very strong. So I'm so confident that I would not be chosen. But.. From all
the candidates, they chose 'A' and me. So the process go on and on.. But at the
moment I'm pretty sure that will never got the offer…(ya la.. Pointer pun tak
lepas.. Apo..)… but the drama got worsen when only me got the offer letter.
Which mean, I will have to go alone without 'A'. And aku tak ada duit pun nak
pergi..
So I rejected their
offer. I told them that I will not afford all the living expenses there. I was
so happy at that time. At last, I will not going! Yessssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tapi.. Kusangka
panas hingga ke petang. Rupanya hujan ditengah hari..
They (the university
that organize the program) got back to me offering full sponsorship (including
flight tickets, transportation from and to the airport and weekly stipend)..
Basically, everything is free. Yet I still reluctant to go there. Ya lah. First
time jauh dengan mak ayah.. Beribu-ribu miles pulak. So, I rejected them again.
After that, UM kejar
aku hari-hari weh… call, text, email. So UM agreed to sponsor some more. As
preparation of going there. -_-.. Don’t believe them guys. But I agreed
somehow. But it just few weeks before the flying date. It is the biggest
decision I have ever made in my life. Regret? Of course. At first.
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Will write more (how
I experience 16 hours flight ALONE, how I experience first time in UK, how I
become the most ungrateful person in the world,how I survive there alone, places I've visited while in UK & many
more).. But, Till next time .